Biography

Born to be called Jiaxin [Bakajia]♥
First tears on 16 sept93♥
Sweet 16 =D
Single
Life rocks with my Family, & Bakas around.
Love Pink as much as I love Jay chou=)
I'm Friendly IF u're my friend.=D
& I don't gv a damn about you if U're not my friend.
Enjoy ur stay here!~=DDD

Mediabox

"If we live our life in fear,
I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again "

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Sweetdesires

Health to become better♥
To be able to last long with YOU♥
SSKK to be happy!(:♥
Long sistership with my Bakas♥
My family Members and Bakas to be healthy and happy.♥
Me to be happy♥
Stop hating ppl that I hate deeply.♥
To slim down to 42kg!♥
Get into Ngee Ann Poly,Nursing=)♥
More clothes♥
Wishes to come true♥

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Amenda♥
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Angie NOOB♥
BakaWini DeaR♥
Benjamin♥
Brenda Dar♥
Cailing♥
Cynthia Dar♥
Chanel♥
Elleen♥
Firdaus♥
Grace♥
Huilin♥
Jasmine♥
Jia Yu♥
Joscelin♥
Joeslyn DeaR♥
Kaifang♥
Kelvin♥
Liping♥
LJX koR♥
MaoQi♥
Mr Sng♥
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Qianling♥
Sandra♥
Sandra Lee♥
Shi Hui♥
ShiJia♥
Stella (:♥
Valarie Meii♥
Vanessa♥
WeiJun((Cousin))♥
WeiLin ♥

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♥ March 2009
♥ April 2009
♥ May 2009
♥ June 2009
♥ July 2009
♥ August 2009
♥ September 2009
♥ October 2009
♥ November 2009
♥ December 2009
♥ January 2010
♥ February 2010
♥ March 2010
♥ May 2010

Creditorials

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Sunday, May 23, 2010

OmGoMG!
Stress start t build in me le.
Common test coming le.
GOSH!
Im going to start my revision
& Start mugging hard le.
Going for my clinical attachment this June.
Ohyes!
Im so excited about it.
HOHOHO!
Im so glad I've chosen Nursing as my course.
Although its tough and damn lots of things t study.
But i believe my hard work will pay off de.
Ohyes It will.
Definitely.
But right now.
I must really really really WORK HARDDDDD.
That's simple t say but hard t act it out.
Inner part of me keep asking t slack.
GoshGosh!
AAP sucks.
Dont know what language th lecturer is talking about.
Damn itt~!
Project not done yet.
Haish.
Its okay lurhs.
Even though there're so much things that i need to work on.
But im still very contented wit my current life!(:
Although some part of me is still healing,very slowly.
But i believe time heals th pain lurhs.
Eventually I will start t become more mature and grow up.
Now i'll just wait for that day t come.
HOHOHOHO!~
& I still have time t type crappy things down.
ALRIGHTS!~
Now im going t get back t serious stuff again.
Takecare peeps.
JIAYOU PEOPLE!!!
(:
Post again when Im free.

Let go of something that you really love,
If it comes back to you,
It's yours forever.
And if it dont comes back,
It was never yours at th start.
So will you come back?

Monday, May 10, 2010

HOHO!
Finally Im here t post again.
(:
Im going to start everything afresh.
New school, New environment, new friends and new EVERYTHING!
Although it'll be hard for me t switch t a totally new environment.
But somehow or rather, I'll get used to it.
I guess that's how life should be.
And somehow Im studying th course that i want t get into.
& Now i've got into Nursing Course.
I have no reasons to give up just because of my fear.
Right!(:
But I still hate waking up in th morning!
Not used t it bahs.
(:
Im looking forward t my clinical attachment and BREAK!
Tired!
So much to study!
Wohoooo~
JIAYOU!
-------------------------------------
Im back to single again.
HAHAHAHA!
It's a tough decision to make.
But i won't regret after i made this decision.
I guess we'll be happier after we've separate.
I'm not a good girlfriend.
Im tired of trying again and again.
And disappointing myself again and again.
I guess you're not th one Im looking for.
However i still hope that you can live wel without me.
All the best Simon!
Thanks for all th effort you've put in.
Hope you'll meet a better girl that cherish you.
But sad enough,Im not good enough t deserve you.
I dont have that confidence yet.
(:
Thanks LJX noob for cheering me up,
And making an effort t meet me today just t pei me talk.
Appreciate it leii.
Hoho.
You're th best kor ah.
(:
Thanks for advicing me.
(:
& all my time will goes t my studies le.
Im not going to be stuck in the same old thing again.
Smiles!
That's all for today's post.
Better get back t studying again.
JIAYOU!

Letting you go is hard,
But keeping you by my side is even harder.
I want you to be happy.
Real happiness.
I failed to give you that kind of happiness.
We've too much differences le.
I will remember all the good stuff about you,
And delete away all the bad stuff about you.
I won't mention anything bad about you,
Cause Im not even perfect in th first place.
Good memories will always be kept with me de.
GBY!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

YesYes!
Im back t th normal me le.
HOHOHOHO!
Super looking forward t th start of my Poly life.
Not because of making new friends and stuff.
Its because i can finally get one step closer t my dream le.
&& Of course t go sch wit my usual clings again!
HOHOHO!
Cant wait Cant wait!!!
Roarrr!
Hahah!
Nothing much t post abt le.
That's it.
Sayonara!=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Today's gonna be an emo AGAIN!
Paiseh.
If u came across my blog,
And u dont wish t read smth negative.
Then PLEASE
kindly press the red
cross on th top right hand corner.
TYVM!
I do not want t force anyone t read this.
(:
No offence!=DD
Dont know what went wrong le.
PS: It've got nth t do with r/s stuff.

Please DONT start saying anything.
Seriously,I've got no one that i can actually confides to.
MAYBE there's is.
But actually can't help out much toos.
Cause I REALLY
needs someone there.
&& Anyway THANKS mushroom & S. (:
Am i really such a irritance t this family?
VIOLENCE AFTER VIOLENCE AND IT'LL JUST LEAD TO MORE VIOLENCE.

Y cant adults just sit down and sort things out.
Bloody hell.
Violence can solve problems.
&& Pls,
Being violent is just destroying th lil respect i had for you.

Or maybe even making me hate
you more.
You dont have any rights t be violent t anyone tt comes ur way.
&& From young,what example u had set for me???
& Pls lahs.
STOP
comparing me with her anymore la.
If u really wish that she was ur daughter,
Then go acknowledge her as ur daughter la.
YES!
Im not even quarter of her cleverness,
Not even 1% of her everything.
She came from topped schools,

ME?
Neighbourhood school.
She receives scholarship
t studied overseas,
Me?
Not even a shit.
She got bright future.

Me?
Just can be a small useless Nurse that earns lil each mth.
So why should u still regards me as ur daughter.
Yes,I always ended up doing th wrong stuff.
Being wit guys that u dont like.
Hangin wit friends that u dont approve.
Have u ever supported what I've decided?
Have u ever asked me what i want t achieve in th future.
Just because Nurse earns lil,
That doesnt means u can insults that job.
& Pls STOP
using sch fee t threaten me.
Cause i wont stop my dream even though u disapprove.
&& PLEASE!
Stop acting like those gangsters outside.
U can do what u want,
But please set a good example for my sis.
I wont provoke you or even appear infront of you unnecessarily.
& Dont ever let me see you violent toward her,
Or else I'll make sure I wont even regard u as my D.
Dont force me t doing that.
Cause you're just being way too unreasonable.
& That's why Im following ur steps.
GET IT?
*****************
Damn it la.
Sorry for my ranting.
CAN god please
send someone who can really be there for me?
I dont know why?
I dont need fake concern,I dont need encouragement.
I dont need ppl t keep asking me what's wrong wit my family.
I need SOMEONE who can tell me what t do.
& Guess the only ppl is MYSELF.

HAHAHHAHAAS~
&& Maybe from long time ago,
Im already all by myself alrdy.
Nobody actually cares what Im doing and how well Im living.
They merely asked just t pretend that they're concerned.
HAHAHAHS!
That's it.
I dont need anything,anyone,anymore.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Hellosss~~
Im fine le!=DDD
Thanks for th tags peeps!
I guess it's just me who is thinking so much.
Ah Soon arh.
I'll make u believe that HE's NOTHING t me.
And i dare t write down here that he's NOTHING t me.
Not even worth remembering a person like him.
& It'll be even more not worth for you t mind abt him.
Cause you're MILLIONS TIMES better than him.
You make me understand things tt i failed t understand in th past.
Seriously,I was way too dumb in th past.
But now,I've got you by my side.
Im fear of nothing.
I just want you t believe this- ILOVEYOU AH SOON!~
& I understand ur fears too.
I promise u i'll take away all ur fears.
I'll filled you up with LOVE.
I'll make u smile every single day.
Just like how u make my day.
& I can tell you straight that this blog is for YOU to see.
And of course for my friends WHO are rly my friends.
I dont need extra people t come and see.
I know you know who im referring to.
I just want to tell YOU.
Im living well with my boyf taking care of me.
No need your concern or whatsoever.
You're just way too fake t hangout with.
& Too bad more girls are going into th trap tt u set up.
LOL.
I've no rights t say any further.
Firstly- Im not interested in your life.
Secondly- My boyf will be unhappy.
& I definitely wont let him unhappy even for a second.
I dont care you red/yellow/black OR GREEN!!!
Get th f*** out of my life.
U asked me how my life is doing.
& I will answer you right here.
Im doing very fine(:
That's it.
You won't appear in my life anymore.
************************
Ah soon ah.
JTJX love you t th max lahhhhhs~
There're more thing tt i want t prove t you.
HOHOHOHO~!
Muackzz~
Always 25.12.09
You're my best christmas gift=DD
& Lastly,I need extra people's comment.
TYVM!=DDDDDDDDDD

Friday, March 12, 2010

- Damn disappointed.
- Bo mood t carry on anymore.
- Cant pretend that everything's alrights.
- Cant fake a smile on my face anymore.
- Want t tell someone how bad I feel deep in my heart.
- Dont wish t hear any FAKE word from u.
- Start t ponder th real meaning of love.
- Wants t forget those unhappy stuff.
- Angry with what u said.
- Clueless of what t do.
- Wondering if what u said is true or not.
- Emo-ing abt th same old shit again.
- Dont know how t carry on with it le.
- Want t be alone.
- Not t be serious le.
- Dont care/think so much.
- Think more abt things that r more worth it.
- Thinking y guys cn be so ____.
- Losing faith and trust.
- Dont wish t know anything more le.

&&& Lastly, IM TIRED!!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

HoHoHo.
Just a quick update.
(:
Hasn't been using blogger for so long le.
Lost the mood t post perhaps.
But anyway,Im looking forward t th start of poly.
Must settle th enrolment stuff first.
Super complicated alrights(:
Anyway,Im a happy person now.
No more negative's feeling.
(:
& Im so glad that I've YOU.
& I dont need t name down what U've done for me.
Cause its recorded in my mind.
I believe everything'll be okay.
I dont need t show t everyone how much i feel for you.
Cause I only need you t know.
& That's enough le.
Going out with kor & his girl tmr.
HAPPINESS!=)
Shall post again next time.
Takecare peeps.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Oh, HAHA!
Just realise that my blogging is dying.
(:
HOHO.
Wont be blogging for a LONGGGG period.
And i guess it wont makes any difference toos.
(:
I'll perservere in th things that i believe.
I wont give upp.
NEVER!(:
& For those who think that they're going t chg my mindset.
Two words for you-
F*** OFF.
Tyvm.
TATAS.
I'll prove to you what i mean.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

FuCk lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Kns.
Seriously one simple word FUCK.
Damn moodless le lurhs.
Its my life alrights.
Dont try t control my life.
Dont ask me to do this do that.
& Try t control my way of thinking
SO WHAT?
You're just those bitchy busybody BITCH outside,
Who likes t gossip behind people's back.
& Try t act as if you're concern.
But actually you dont.
You just wanna let me know that you're older than me,
So you've more experience than me.
FUCK OFF LAHS.
You think i freaking care.
When i've probs, do you fucking care,
Dont try t influence ppl ard me,
t think that Im doing bad things.
Ya,First is my mum.
Next is my Dad.
Then who else?
& Pls larhs. Shut your ass up larhs.
You can go ahead and say for all you want.
& Dont try t talk logic with me.
Cause it just doesnt makes sense.
If you've SO MUCH free time,
I think u should go and check out ur own temper first bahs.
Fighting over money issues,
and have no respect for your own parents,
And now you're tellling me abt what i shd nt do?
KNS LAHS.
Dont force me t say things that are worse than this straight on ur face.
& Please.
Dont come my hse as and when u like.
& Dont come my room w/o my permission t talk t me.
I dont wanna see your fuck up face,
And hear your damn fucking voice.
Just shut upp larhs.
Dont forget how u used t demoralized me in th past,
When im sitting for my Os.
I wont forget it ever in my life.
I remember every single shitty words you ssaid right infront of me.
You said that ___ can get into Uni lawyer course,
And for me Nursing is a good course,
cause its easier t study &
I dont need t get into Uni and struggle.
Shit you larhs bitch.
Looking down at your own niece doesnt make you look anywhere better.
Oohkays,Done with my ranting(: ♡
Felt so much better.
& Sorry for my language used.
I dont mean it alrights(:
HAHAHAHAS!
Lastly,I dont need your consent,
whether which guy Im hanging out with.
Ohyes,I just wanna be with HIM♡
♡Simon Soon Kok Keong.♡
So what if he's older than me.
LOLOLOLOL.
Get it Bitch?
HAHAHAHAHAS(:♡

i just wanna spend my life with you.
I wanna ignore all th voices out there.
Who are telling me t leave you.
& Yes.
Im stubborn.
& Im fighting for my rights.
T be with someone I truely love.
This time round,Im not going t make way.
NEVER!

Monday, February 1, 2010

ILOVEYOU(: 25.12.09






Didnt give a proper post on our first month anni,
So here t say out everything that i longed t say.
(:
Only dedicated to you.
SIMON SOON KOK KEONG(:

Today is our 39th day together.
Although its not long.
Cause we're still getting t understand each other better.
But thanks for everything that you've done for me.
&& your gift to me on our anni.
(:
I really like it,Cause its from you.
=DD

&&& Now you're in JB.
Come back soon ahhhh~
Miss you!=DD

Intended t watch My ex today with U~
But due t some reason,you need t go back JB.
Haha,I'll understand de lurhs.
Friday we'll watch it tgt alrights(:

&&& Take good care of your hand.
And really next time be more careful okay?
& I'm sorry for not able t do much.
Except t do crap things t make you smile(:
Sorry dear:(

In this period of time that we'te tgt.
I can see the effort you'r putting in,
Its beyond words t describe here.
It takes time t fully understand someone.
And that's what im doing now.
And beside understanding you,
I want t know how t be a better girlf.
I'll learn t control my temper,
And the words I said when Im angry that hurts you.
I will change even thou you dont mind.
I MIND Alrights(:

& I really mean it when I said I dont love/miss him anymore.
Not even abit.
I took ten months t get him off from my mind.
& Its more than enough,
for this kind of person t stay in my mind for so long.
Its not worth it at all.
Now its your turn,
To occupy my mind(:

& Its a longggg post le.
That's all about YOU.
I bet you're the only one who will feel happy after reading it.
& That's enough le.
Cause i dont need other's comment.

Whether this r/s is good or bad, I'll accept it.
Cause its my decision,Not yours.
I know who Im referring to.
& I dont need your comment or whatever shyt.
(:
Okays,gonna go back to my show le.
TATAS!
Lastly,dear i miss you. Muackzz=DD

Friday, January 29, 2010

Currently so into this freaking cool show.
Hai pai tian xin~
Woots.
Okays,I know Im abit slow.
But th storyline is cool uhs.
& Both the actor and actress are so COOL.
Just one word; COOL!~(:
Hmm,haha!
But drama are still drama.
It'll not happen in real life.
TATAS!
Going t work ltr(:
Going out wit Mushroom this Sat.
Buying clothes!~~~
Woooooooots~!
Enjoyenjoy.
That's all.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

HAHAHAS.
Im BEING so boreddddd~~
Whatever!(:
Anyway,HAPPY one monthsary dear!(:
Hope you like my surprise!
Muackzz.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Having trust in a r/s is crucial.
I mean its like duh.
If both person failed t give their trust t th other party.
Its pointless t continue.
Im not implying anything.
Just want t say out my view here.
Misunderstanding are scary.
It can destroy every lil hopes that is building up.
Every word that you want t explain.
It just went off like that,
& U dont feel like explaining any longer.
Even thou you might say:" I trust you,really."
Its like SO?
Your main intention in saying that is nt you trust me.
Is because you dont want th matter t blow up.
Isnt that pathetic.
Every expression that you shown on ur face.
It hurts.
Im speechless le.
& To ___, Shut your ass up lahs.
Does it ever bother you whether who Im hanging up with?
Does it kills t shut up and f off.
Did you ever use your bloody brainless brain,
t even think before saying things out.
Hell la.
You might not realise and think its gonna be funny.
But i dont think so.
It really just show so much abt you.
& I mean YOU.
Somethings can be joke abt and somethings CANT.
Gets th fact right man!
You dont look anywhere better.
Dont think too highly of your own appearance,
Cause if looks are what you're looking for.
That shows how shallow a person you are.
DAMN YOU MAN.
& PLEASE dont comment abt who Im tgt with.
Its NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
F off lahs.
When Im quiet,
It doesnt mean Im agreeing wit what u say,
But im just trying t endure th shitty words of you.
Bear that in mind.
I've said this very nicely le,
since I used t treat you as a friend.
But now I DONT.
(:
Sorry for my ranting.
Just couldnt take it any longer le.
I just couldnt understand what's wrong wit those ppl,
Who likes t gossip behind ppl's back,
And trying t hide everything when things came t light.
Just SICK of facing those ppl.
Trying t put on a fake smile.
Smiling when deep inside my heart,
I felt so shit.
Get it.
Neverminds.
Time heals.
Idontcareanymore.
& Maybe its my fault t have so much hopes.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Hmm,
Replying tags here!

Liping; Ohya. HAHA! Didnt get t meet you at all, Roar. Soon kays dearr!(:

Brenda; Hahaha. Thanks lurhs. Sweet ah. (: Hmm,you toos. JIAYOU!!

Green; Hmm,thanks uhs. Just wonder if you're..? Nvm then. Thanks anyway,No matter who you're (: You takecare toos.

Done!
Going out in another 2HOURS.
Meeting kor at CWP.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
Bored to death le lurhs.
Ineedanentertainer.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
S finally start work le after 3days off.
HOHO.
So sadd ahh.
& Its now my turn t be resting for three days le.
Sad uhs.
Cant get t see you.
Hopefully friday you will show ur face when I come down.
HOR??
(:
Done with my crapping le.
Imissyoulikehowimissmydblcheezebur(:
TATAS!(:

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Hmm.
It've been long since I lasted post.
HAHAHA!
Anyway,got back 'O's result le.
Yupp, I know.
It've been OVER for so long le & Im still telling this.
WHATEVER!(:
Not reaching my expectation.
I mean like seriously.
I aimed for something like 12?
Ya I know.
Think too highly of myself le.
=.=
But gotten back 15pt.
HAHAHAHA.
Well,It okay lurhs.
And I've applied for Nursing course at Ngee Ann poly.
Just t shot that Im nt someone who gives up easily.
Or talk big without actions t pusue my dream.
Actually in fact,
People around me tells me to think carefully.
As it's nvr a easy job, Or a easy course to study,
It's a life long commitment.
And seriously I've thought for very long.
Should I or should I not.
But im clear that if I never choose that,
I'll end up regretting if I entered into a course
that probably has a good future
but will never be my passion.
So therefore,Im NOT going to give up.
No matter how hard it is.
Thanks for th support S.
(:
Thurs going out wit Kor and Gf,
Treating them sakae.
Will be getting my pay TOMORROW.
And its like TOMORROWWWWW~~
Wooooots.
Going to be broke le lurhs.
I mean if my pay still doesnt come,
I'll be seriously CASHLESS le.
Ya, Looking forward to Thurs.
& I'll nvr mind spending $On ppl who treats me well.
Including WY and even S etcetc.
(:
I want to watch MY EX.
Its like so DAMN nice.
*HINTS*
Better get my hint ahh.(:
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
Working later on.
But Im meeting S before Im off for work.
HAPPINESS.
You can always make me smile when Im down.
& Never fails to do those actions that melt my heart.
Muackzz la.
Although those past memories/fear still lingers in my heart,
& I've told you that its nt easy for me t forget him easily.
I mean those memories.
But Im still thankful that U never plan t give me up,
Or walk away.
HOHOHOHO.
Im just purely lucky,
To have met you in my life.
(:

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Oh.
HAHAHAH.
Result out tomorrow.
Im not going to worry too much.
Just let it be.
I DID try my very best in it.
And I believe its more than enough le.
(:
Goodluck t friends ard me too.
=DDD
And my dearest 4E4.
I really hope that we can graduate tgt.
I mean nobody will be left behind.
JIAYOUUUUUUUU!!!!
Tomorrow will be the day that we cn witness the result of our hardwork.
(:
HAHAHAHA.
Enough of it le.
Dont wanna stress myself le lurhs.
Working later!(:
&& Im happy.
HOHOHOHOHO!
TATATAS.
Takecare peeps.
JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUU~

Im happy enough to have you by my side now.
Seriously the feeling is like never before.
It seems real.
For the first time.
Cause i know that you'll never abandon me like how he did.
Some feelings are beyond words t describe,
So i'll show you by my actions.
And I know that we're willing t contibute to this r/s.
Thanks dear(:
For making me smile every single day.
Iloveyou!(: